Failure

[elfinsnow]

I am so heartbroken and humiliated right now, and I really just need to say something to someone...Anyone. (So I`ll do it here)
I made a mistake at work a couple months ago. Some paperwork got backed up, causing a late charge and a very unhappy boss. He gave me a week to fix it, and I thought that I did. He got over it- everything was cool.
Now here we are- 2 months later- and I find that I missed 1 more thing. Unfortunately it was a big one, and it cost the company $4000 to fix my mistake today. I have been just sick to death since I realized my mistake, and I so dreaded admitting it. I almost quit- I thought about it- but I didn`t want to do that to hubby (He`s a partner here)or the boss.
So hubby spoke with the boss this am.He is so furious with me that he doesn`t even want to speak with me, he is relaying messages through hubby. (He is away until May, so I don`t actually see him.) The verdict right now is that I am to stay here and work until he gets back in May, and then I am done. I am not to ask him for anything ever again. If I can manage not to screw up between now and then maybe he`ll consider keeping me, but at this point I`m not holding my breath.
What hurts the most is that my boss was so confident in me, and now I blew it. He was a good friend, was teaching me so much, and our families were becoming close.
And now I feel like a complete failure. [img]smileys/smiley18.gif[/img]I have noone to blame but myself, but damn it still hurts. I was so happy here, and so proud that I could jump right in after 18 yrs at home with my kids and take a job like this. I really thought I was doing good.
Anyways- just venting I guess. Hope ya`ll have a better day than me.
Terry

[mompenguin]

I am so sorry! Hopefully, the next couple of months will go smoothly and the boss will calm down and everything will work out just fine.

Jeannine

[Bev S]

[img]smileys/smiley19.gif[/img] Oh Terry, honey. I am sooo sorry you are going through this!!!

First of all, you are NOT a failure!!!! No Way!!!!!!!

Hopefully things will go smoothly for you between now and May and he decides to keep you on.... or, maybe it's a sign that you need to be home this summer? It's your son's last summer before college, and you could spend it with the boys....

[img]smileys/smiley31.gif[/img] Big huge hugs hon....I honestly have tears in my eyes, I feel so bad for you....

Bev

Edited by: Bev S

[~Crystal~]

Oh Hun, everyone makes mistakes. Try not to be so hard on yourself.

[Kyles Mommy]

I'm sorry. I know how the feeling like a failure thing is.

[Mom2]

[loli]

I feel for you. The shame you are feeling is coming through your words. BIG hugs your way. You made a mistake. A costly mistake. But it could happen to anyone. Don't beat yourself up over it anymore. We are all here for you. Hold your head high and just try not to think about the boss. Really if he cant get through this with out speaking to you he should have sent you home instead of this kind hurting he is putting on you.

[patmama3]

Oh I'm SO sorry you're going through this! How uncomfortable for you.We are only human,we all make mistakes.The beating you're giving yourself hurts more than anything anyone else could do!! Please don't feel like a failure, I know it feels like you are right now but you know deep down in your heart that you have done more things right...than wrong. NOBODY is 100% right at everything they do. Do the best you can from now until May and keep your chin up.You still have MUCH to be proud of.

[LisaRose]

[Sandie03]

I am so sorry that you are going through this. Don't beat yourself to badly over this because EVERYONE makes mistakes. If you beat yourself up to much it will take yourself longer to pick yourself back up...take this from someone who used to be really hard on herself. You don't need to make yourself sick or fall into a depression.
Hugs go out to you. Take care!