[Mom2Sami]

I know what you mean. I am just concerned that I will be "blamed". Does most IBOs focus on people they don't know (like strangers) so if there is a failure you don't have to look at them all the time.

I mean I don't want to throw in their face how well I am doing (and I say that present tense because I really do think that when I start I WILL be doing well) when I know they did not do as well.

And yes, I realize you do need to care. I guess I should not have said that it is just a business and I shouldn't care because at the end of the day I can't just turn off what I feel. I am going to care and that is that. The difference is that I need to put the blame where it is. If I tried to train and help them and they don't make it then it is not my fault it is theirs.

I I have a very big why. Well, actually when you really think about it is a small why, My why is my daughter. Since being unemployed I have been able to stay at home. This is coming from an executive assistant that would work 8 hours at work and then come home and maybe work an extra hour or more. I don't want that life for my daughter. I want to be around for her. My job was SO important that I did not even take a maternity leave. I worked from home the whole time I was supposed to be off. My job was important. I was the assistant to the person who was trying until the bitter end to keep the company open. In the end it closed and that is the way it goes.

I want to be home when my daughter is. I have been getting into the habit of "playing" on the computer during the day so she gets used to me being on the computer all the time. So far it has been working out fine.

So she is my WHY.