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Originally Posted by actsup2
The 17th of this month will be 3 months that I work my last day. Every day I am online looking for work - either work I can do at home or a regular job. I know everything is in God's timing. I know I will have some type of job when God is ready for me to. I feel like I'm suppose to be learning something while I'm unemployed. It's been very difficult. To put it very boldly - my home life sucks. My husband, of almost a year, and I fight all the time, his 15 yr old son is a terror (he lies and steals and destroyes everything in his path, glutonizes our food, along with showing me great amounts of disrespect and I have a soon to be 21 yr old that is back in college and having a had time finding a job) My husband works for Walmart making $8.70 an hour - which is nothing for a home of 4 people. I use to make the money that supported the house. I can't take just any job because my unemployment actually pays the house payment right now.
I have so much stress and depression overwhelming me that I feel sick to my stomach most days and I'm so depressed that I just sit here looking for work, gaining weight, feeling to tired to move and basically am friendless now. I know I sound like one big pitty party - but I'm just so very tired. I know we are better off than many other out there. I'm trying not to be so self centered - but it's hard. I just want to feel God's presence, I want to hear something from Him. To add to the stress, my only brother killed himself a month ago. I have a lot of guilt over that. Mainly because we hadn't spoken in 2 yrs. I just need some peace.
Sorry for going on and on - please, if someone, anyone could pray for me. It would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you
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